They say that January 24th is statistically the most depressing day of the year. So let me indulge in a short self loathing rant in the spirit of this day.
I feel fat and old. My house has been on the market for 9 months without a single offer. Nioxin does not make hair thicker. The alarm system wouldn't stop chirping so I cut the wires. Now I have to pay to get it fixed. The mortgage went up because taxes went up. I am too tired to fight the increase. J-Date sucks. Aveda doesn't make my favorite green tea/smoked satin eye pencil anymore. My computer is 8 years old and acts like it has cancer. I can't afford a new one. MEX told S he might be going to Paris "with a friend." I need to come up with several thousand dollars for G's summer trip. I didn't get the freelance project I pitched last month.
Yup. Life sucks sometimes. Trust me, you don't feel any older or fatter than I do. And finances? Well, we won't even go there.
Sometimes I just wish for good drugs. Wellbutrin, anyone? It's done wonders for my son, but somehow I haven't been able to go there...
So at the end of the day,I try to remember that my life is pretty damn good when compared to so many others -- like the veterans who live in the nursing home at the VA. Some of them are my age (old, but not ancient). They served in Vietnam. They have missing limbs. They have no place else to live.
Okay, I'm done now. Thanks, Nina for giving me a place to put this in perspective and get over my
pity party.
Posted by: Liz Lorber | January 24, 2008 at 08:53 PM
Ditto. I know this sounds a tad cliche but I feel your pain. You are entitled to a personal pity party every now and then....and then sometimes you need to throw yourself a benefit gala.
And yes, JDate should be called JDont. As a 53 year old woman, this whole notion of dating is like a full time job without any benefits. I wish I could hire someone to cut through the BS and then send me on the date.... hey, do I foresee a business plan in my future? ;)
I think 2008 will be your year and deservedly so.
Posted by: atlantastylemaker | January 26, 2008 at 01:55 AM